So undecided!

I am so torn.  I want to quite my job and be a stay at home mom, I know that I have little kids and I feel that they need the one on one time and me teaching them; getting them ready for the next phase in there lives. But then I feel like I need to  go to school and finish what I started. But then I would feel like I am putting my kids and husband on the back burner. Letting the baby sitter raise my kids and my husband work and taken care of them also. I start thinking of all the classes and home work and I can feel anxiety build and I not even sure that is what I want to do at this point. I love the thought of being a stay at home mom just to be with my kids all day making sure the house is clean, baking what ever they want, reading and teaching them. Dinner for the husband at 5:30 to 6. That's sounds great! And then I think to myself, what if....
What if something happened to Alys or his work what would we do then. I would have to get a crappy job with little pay and would we survive. Probably not. " He would have to travel"
So as you can see I am so torn. Not sure what to do.
  "undecided"

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